Productive

I'm in a much better mood tonight. I've been calculating how much money I've made so far. It's nice to finally have a job that pays fairly. It also helps that the only bills I really have are for school. I'm finally able to see myself being able to really save up. It's a good feeling. I always had to work my ass off in Chicago to make just more than enough.

I work almost every day which is nice. I feel like I'm actually doing something worthwhile. I was so down all the time when I felt unproductive. It drove me insane. I'd much rather have too much to do than not enough. I like to keep busy. It keeps my mind off of things as well.

I'm thinking about Laiah every day. I'm definitely not looking to date anyone else. I want to see it work out, I really do. But I can't force her into it. She already told me she doesn't think we should get back together. If that's really the case, I'm still not interested in dating anyone else. You don't get over someone that means that much to you just like that. As long as she holds my heart, no one else has a chance.