Cut Off

I feel extremely disconnected from everyone and everything as of late. I'm not sure how I feel about it. It doesn't feel crazy terrible. However, it's pretty lonely. I think I'm beginning to fall into a routine though. That will make things easier, I suppose. No time to dwell on what's not there. Work, save money, and schoolwork.

But then what? What am I saving and preparing for? It's hard having a set plan for so long, and then waking up one day to find that it's gone. It's an odd feeling. I know what I want to do. But it's hard to throw yourself out there when the person you desire to please doesn't even want to be with you. It's extremely disheartening.


I just need to know that I'm working toward something. If not, what's the point?