One Day

I will get back to actually updating this.
I just find that lately I have so much on my mind, it'd take ages to get out.


My birthday sucked ass.
But Josh got me some balloons.


Mike's moving out the first, sadly. But in comes Matt.





Someone come save me from work.

Happy Birthday

to me.

Worker Bee #7438F87904

I can't help but to feel that I'm always here at your convenience.
I don't desire to be wanted only when you feel that you have no one left.

I'm #5(Retarded)

I totally didn't have to work today. Ugh.
I don't work tomorrow either.
It's kind of nice.

But I'm a be bored as heck.
Hang out?
Thanks.


I'm starting to feel a little better.
Michelle took great care of me :)
I love her.
AND, I saw Sara today for the first time since I moved out. I need to see her face more often. For reals.


I cannot wait to start work on my fish tankkk. Kyle has drawn up some sweet stuff. I just need to decide on placement. It's nice having him a three minute walk away. Mmmhmm!

My birthday is next Friday. Crazy. Come over Saturday. We're going to be having loadsss of fun. Cowboys and Indians themed. Don't miss out.

Surprise, Surprise

At the most random timesss...
Richmond soonish.






Work at 4. Ick.
Make the cold go away.
Jamie, get your face here.
Thanks.

Rain, Rain, Go Away

I haven't been this sick in awhile. I feel horrid. I can't breathe, I have a killer headache, and I keep hacking up Lord knows what. That's what I get for walking around in the freezing rain in canvas shoes and no jacket...twice!

Kyle touched up my arm yesterday. However, I almost suffocated from being all stuffy lying facedown. He saved the day with a Claritin. I'd felt the best I had in quite some time. I need to go get me some. That Sudafed did nothing for me.

He's drawing me up a goldfish now. I'm not sure where to put it yet. I don't think I want it on the same arm, but I said I didn't want to move onto the other arm until this one was finished.

I let Brent stay over the other night because he was trashed walking around at four in the morning. I had to work at 8am. I called him on break to see if he was still at my apartment. He was so fucked up, he didn't even remember who's place he was at. Sometimes, I seriously just want to strangle him. Needless to say, when he walked in as I was leaving Kyle's, he didn't even try to speak to me. He knew I was pissed off.

Jamie's still coming soon. That's something to look forward to. However, I find myself thinking more and more that I'm not really worth his time. We have very different views and morals when it comes to some pretty serious issues. Sometimes I feel terrible about him settling for someone like me. I don't feel like I'm a bad person. But I've done many of the things he's so set against. So what sets me apart from those kids he speaks out on?
"
I finally met the new roommate. He's pretty chill. He wants me to invite hot girls over. Yes, another Joshua. I prefer living with guys over girls, but some things are going to drive me crazy. I'm not here to provide them with girls to scam on.




I'm beginning to feel really lonely again. I just want it to stop. I want to be surrounded by people that care. I want to know who's really worth my time.

Jeenah Jonesss

Is listening to sweet 80's music across from me.


I have to work at 5. Lame. I got the job at H&M. I'm working both. Make that money.

I still haven't bumped into the new roommate yet. He's always in bed by the time I make it home and at work by the time I wake up. Perfect. I'm beginning to doubt his existence.

I met up with Brent for tacos last night. Cutting out optical illusions from his calendar, 60's images, and Negra Modelo. Missed that kid. Back there Monday for Kyle to touch up my arm. Sweettt. Oh, and their fourth roommate finally came back from where the hell ever. First time meeting him. Cool guy. I want him to paint me something for my room.

Ohhh, Jamie will be back in a couple of weeks. I'm a make him stay fo-evaaa.
Seriously.

Over

My train back to Chicago leaves at 8 in the a.m.


I'm not happy.
I don't want to go.

Getting out isn't as great if you have no one to share it with.
It's really starting to tear me up inside.




I found someone that's good for me for a change.
I'm torn. I don't even know why I'm going back anymore.

Oh, and

"I'm going to let you in on a little secret, I miss a certain young lady, or at least what I thought we had. So Raven, (don't act like you didn't know that's who I was talking about) even though right now I'm hard headed and I can't apologize because I 'see nothing wrong'. I want to apologize via blog, maybe some day I'll grow up and realize something I am missing right now, but for now I am sorry for how you found out and I am sorry for everything else. Chances are you won't read this, actually I'm three thousand percent sure you will not, but in the small chance that you do this is my semi apology. I'll get guts eventually and no I don't expect you to accept it at all. I do love you and I hope things look up for you."

I still love Jackie.

Ecstatic

I can't even begin to describe...
Amazing day with Mark and Jamie in the city.
All nighter drive home.

Mark passed out.
Truth game with Jamie.

I made him blush.



I love my family.
Swimming tomorrow for the first time in 3 years.
Yes, really swimming.
Stoked.


Jamie gets to meet the fam.
Look out, kid.


'nuff for now.