Irritable much?

Is there a day that goes by anymore where I don't cry? Seriously, I prided myself on not being one of those outwardly gross, emotional girls for so long. I suppose I just have so much building up daily now. I cannot seem to keep it from spilling over anymore.

My moods are being seriously affected. I'm extremely irritable. And even the smallest letdown is magnified into something of great magnitude.

I don't mean to be pushy. Maybe it's due to the fact I was forced to grow up so fast. I almost seem to expect everyone else to be on the same level as me. But they're not always going to be. Mom's can be a very touchy subject, apparently. I have a very unconventional relationship with my mother. But I honestly think she has more respect for me and treats me as more of an adult than some of these so called mothers of the year. Why? Because I made her consider me a fellow adult. No parent that cares does this on their own. You have to prove that you are an adult and stand your ground.


Ughhhh. I was just having such a shitty night. And it wasn't alright to just leave me hanging so abruptly. It really bothers me. I am just so sick of being here alone. There may be a dozen people here at all times, but I'm always by myself. It's extremely depressing. It rids me of any desire to do anything. I just don't care. Nothing is getting better. I'm never happy aside from talking to Laiah and a select few that I rarely even get to see.


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go cry some more