Frustration

"if there is a god, the things that go on in this world would not be happening.
i don't care about the adults.
i'm talking children.
starving,beat,molested,abused,raped the list goes on.
there is no god.
i am my own god. i make my choices and i live with them.
i make my own life, not some god."




I get sick of hearing the same old bullshit excuses as to why there can't be a God. God gave us free will. The ability to make our own choices and make our own paths. Now how fair and just would God be if He only gave "good" people the right to choose how they behave and what they do?

Stop blaming God for people's mistakes.


AND, if all was peachy-keen in the world, people would take life for granted. Hell, look at all the shit going on as it is and how many people already take it for granted.



I don't care to receive any replies on how I just don't understand because I haven't experienced the horrors of the world.

I grew up with two drug addicted parents who fucked up my sister's life. I was forced to take care of my siblings for years while my step dad was fucked up and my mom was so deep in depression that she never left her room. I was sexually abused as a child. I've lived my entire life for other people. And as soon as I make a decision for myself, I move away only to be used, lose most of what I have, and raped and molested by my first roommate and his friends.

I'm fucked up. I'm never happy for long. And I still worry mostly over how I can help other that I care about feel better only to be continuously taken for granted and pushed to the side.


But will I denounce my God?
No matter how bad I think I've had it, I know there are those out there that have had it worse. There are people that go through things I cannot even imagine.


God is not at fault.
WE are at fault.