Part Two

I have the tendency to go from being completely crushed and down one moment, to being in a rage the next. I'm told that's how I deal with being hurt. I hide the hurt with anger. I'm beginning to notice just how often this happens.


She admits it is her fault. She drove me to break up with her just like I thought she was doing. Even if she wasn't doing it intentionally.


Honestly, I just don't think she knows what she wants. And it is just tearing me apart.

And in the midst of my anger, anything and everything that she's ever done that bothered me but I never said anything about has come to the surface.

Despite the fact that I considered moving back to Colorado to make things easier, I've decided to stick to my plan of heading back to Chicago. Why? I don't know really. I just feel something tugging at me to do so. Hopefully, something good will come out of it. I could use some good right about now.


And now the anger is subsiding and I'm back to blubbering like a baby. And I should have expected it. I'm so incredibly stupid.