Back and Forth

I'm still having a lot of trouble figuring out where to go from here.

Today was nothing short of wonderful. I spend all day with Kevin Dodson. Mmm, mmm! I couldn't have asked for a greater best friend. I love that boy like none other. I actually had an amazing day. I introduced him to Meiko. He loved her, of course. Then we sat down and just spent some time painting. It was a great release. Even if I suck and lack any sort of technique, it was really good for me. I let go of some things and my heart wasn't as heavy after. His mom brought us food and then we watched two hours of So You Think You Can Dance. It was awesomeeee! Then Kevin showed me some choreography he put together to a Lady Gaga song, haha. After, he just continued to randomly start piroetting around the room during long silences. He played me some more of his songs he's written. His newest made me cry all four times he played it for me. Gah, I'm such a baby. But it was so good. And it totally fit how I was feeling at the time. After, we went out to the reservior and met up with some other cool kids. Becky and April...mmm! Becky and Kevin serenaded us for the rest of the night. The weather, the water, and the music...It was perfect.

It was nice to have a really great day. It doesn't happen nearly enough. I need more kids like them in my life.


So, how do I feel now? It all still kills me. And I don't like it one bit. But I'm alright. I honestly feel that everything will fall into place and work itself out.