Fight, Fight, Fight!

Waste of breath.

I'm trying to keep my focus on the bigger picture. Where I want things to end up. And if that means sucking it up now, I suppose that's what I'll have to do. But I don't forget. I just know that later on my feelings on this are going to have a chance to arise again and my decisions and judgements are going to be based on my feelings as a whole. The feelings I have now. The unfairness. Being unwelcome. My feelings not being worth fighting for. No, I don't have it in me to start a fight. I'm working toward not hiding my feelings behind anger. The truth is, it's not anger or even bitterness that I feel. It's genuine hurt being masked by the latter in order to hide my emotional weaknesses.


It's all been said before.
It'll just continue until it's really going to count.
And that's when action will have to be taken.
I suppose there's no point even dwelling on it now.