Cold

Summer might as well be over around these parts.
Wonderful.


And eff this birthday.
I no longer seem to really care.
How sad is that? I still have three weeks and I'm already totally over my 21st.

Seeing Laiah is really the only upside. At least, the only noteworthy part of the trip.

I'm just tired of all the bullshit. I'm so over having all my plans revolve around other people and their stupid, unjust feelings. I'm sick of always having to take the hard way around everything. I just want a break. I desire for just one thing to go my way for once.

Why am I always so up and down?
I am so sick of being misunderstood. I mean, seriously...my own girlfriend doesn't even know me. And she's the closest person I have to me.

It'd be nice to have stability in more than just Kevin and I's friendship. But no. That's it. That is my only stability. And on a good week I'm able to see him for a full day.


Nights like this make me question why anything matters. I mean, really, what's the point?