Rain, Rain, Go Away

I haven't been this sick in awhile. I feel horrid. I can't breathe, I have a killer headache, and I keep hacking up Lord knows what. That's what I get for walking around in the freezing rain in canvas shoes and no jacket...twice!

Kyle touched up my arm yesterday. However, I almost suffocated from being all stuffy lying facedown. He saved the day with a Claritin. I'd felt the best I had in quite some time. I need to go get me some. That Sudafed did nothing for me.

He's drawing me up a goldfish now. I'm not sure where to put it yet. I don't think I want it on the same arm, but I said I didn't want to move onto the other arm until this one was finished.

I let Brent stay over the other night because he was trashed walking around at four in the morning. I had to work at 8am. I called him on break to see if he was still at my apartment. He was so fucked up, he didn't even remember who's place he was at. Sometimes, I seriously just want to strangle him. Needless to say, when he walked in as I was leaving Kyle's, he didn't even try to speak to me. He knew I was pissed off.

Jamie's still coming soon. That's something to look forward to. However, I find myself thinking more and more that I'm not really worth his time. We have very different views and morals when it comes to some pretty serious issues. Sometimes I feel terrible about him settling for someone like me. I don't feel like I'm a bad person. But I've done many of the things he's so set against. So what sets me apart from those kids he speaks out on?
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I finally met the new roommate. He's pretty chill. He wants me to invite hot girls over. Yes, another Joshua. I prefer living with guys over girls, but some things are going to drive me crazy. I'm not here to provide them with girls to scam on.




I'm beginning to feel really lonely again. I just want it to stop. I want to be surrounded by people that care. I want to know who's really worth my time.