Oh, and

"I'm going to let you in on a little secret, I miss a certain young lady, or at least what I thought we had. So Raven, (don't act like you didn't know that's who I was talking about) even though right now I'm hard headed and I can't apologize because I 'see nothing wrong'. I want to apologize via blog, maybe some day I'll grow up and realize something I am missing right now, but for now I am sorry for how you found out and I am sorry for everything else. Chances are you won't read this, actually I'm three thousand percent sure you will not, but in the small chance that you do this is my semi apology. I'll get guts eventually and no I don't expect you to accept it at all. I do love you and I hope things look up for you."

I still love Jackie.