April

This month has been jumbled together. It seems as though so much has happened, but yet so very little.

Here I am in Colorado. I had mixed feelings about the move. The excitement didn't hit me until I was already here. I planned to move back to Chicago at the end of the summer, but now I am no longer sure that I will be ready. I have so much to explore here. I'm not sure that a summer is enough time to do it justice. Not to mention, it would be a lot easier on me to start school here. However, I don't plan on going back to a university quite yet. My aunt almost has me talked back into going to Aveda. It's an 11 month program if I recall correctly. That gives me time to enjoy the new area and a job to pursue once I head back to Chicago. Honestly, I'm not all too worried about a long term career right now.

That is out of the norm for me. I am so used to planning everything so far in advance. But I'm working on breaking that habit. I nearly drove myself insane before. I am perfectly fine right now. I want to enjoy myself and learn to be alright with me. I'm my toughest critic. I have done a lot of wrong, and I've made some bad decisions as of late. And as most of us know, I need some time to heal.

It's beautiful here. It really is. I feel so at ease for the first time in what seems like forever. But I am having some issues with missing people back in Chicago. Some of those people helped me through one of the roughest years of my life. And for that, I am truly thankful.


I suppose this will suffice as a decent update.
You kids don't be strangers.
Visit me. We can go camping. Woooo!